A New Chapter in My Life

I haven't wrote in quite some time. I did not know what to say and I wanted to wait until I was at a more peaceful and positive point in my life.

On October 28th,2012 I decided that Robert and I needed to divorce. My reasons being I could tell that I did not make him happy anymore, I was not happy, we fought way to much, it seemed neither of us wanted to do much anymore like we lost the feeling of life and I feel as if we continued in the path we were on we both were going to hate each other. So I made the most mature decision and that was to get a divorce. Please do not think I settled that easy. We BOTH did wrong in our relationship and we BOTH could have done things to make our relationship better. We BOTH choose not to do so. I talked to Robert about my choice I offered him marriage counseling  He said he would think about it and later his decision on that was no. I moved out the beginning of January. I filed for divorce March 18th and we will be divorced on June 10th. I thank everyone who gave us support and advice during our relationship and marriage. I am at peace with my choice. Robert is happy and so am I.

I am currently dating my best friend, Travis. He is amazing and wonderful father! He treats me great! I hope a year and 50 years from now I am still with him! Being in love with your best friend is an awesome thing! I think it is the best relationship a person could possibly have! We both have a lot to deal with right now but I know as long as we don't push each other out and continue to let each other in, our relationship will only prevail. Travis has two kids, Trenten who is 5 and Taylin who is 2! Rayelee gets along great with them! and i love all 3 of them sooooooooo much! 

I will post some new pictures at a later date! Rayelee's waking up from her nap!

Its Been Awhile...

I realize I have not been posting blogs. This is mainly due to school and Rayelee being sick since September.

Rayelee:

• She turned one on October 4. Her party was on the 6th and it turned out AMAZING! I will post pictures.
• She has had a viral infection for what feels like forever.
• She walked on her birthday.
• She is already in the "terrible 2's" stage at 1.
• Her favorite word is "dog" and she can pronounce it clearly.

College:

• Honestly, I hate it.
• I have all A's and B's.
• My word of advice is to never take an online math classes because they really suck.

Robert and I:

I will not go into detail on this but I know people are beginning to ask questions.

• We are doing what is best for Rayelee.
• We will both make sure Rayelee is comfortable at all times with her surroundings.
• I am happy with the choices I make. If I am happy, Rayelee is happy, then thats what matters.
• Stop listening to rumors. If you have a question ask me. 

Rayelee's kitten also turned one in October :) 

Breastfeeding and LBGT Rights

I am doing this to just get it over with. 

Breastfeeding. It is natural. I support it 100%. I also support formula feeding 100%. Do whats best for you and your family. Breastfeeding is not for everyone. Some people have medical issues to where they cannot breastfeed. My daughter wouldn't take my milk now matter what I do. I didn't want her to starve so we started formula feeding. I think women breastfeeding should be able to feed where ever they want with or without a cover. Why, because once again it is a natural thing. If we did not make breast into something sexual than we would not freak out when a mother is feeding their hungry child in public.

All this chick-fil-a stuff is stupid. Who cares what some 80 something year old man thinks. He has his freedom to speech just like everyone else. I support gay rights and freedom of speech. I would not stop eating good chicken because the founder of the company does not believe in gay marriage.How childish is that. If a gay couple would go in there I am sure they would be served just as friendly as every straight couple.

Glad that's over with.

Life Update

A lot has happened in the past weeks, which is my reason as to not posting once a day.

Rayelee is getting into EVERYTHING. I am usually chasing her 90% of the day. She is a little explorer! She is almost 10 months old! We had a photo shoot last week and are waiting for the pictures. Once i have purchased them, I will share.

My dad came down to visit and bought a new laptop for me, since my old one broke back in May. The reason he bought the laptop is because I AM GOING TO COLLEGE! Finally, I rather be starting two years late, then never! I went to our local college and did my placement test, after three years of not being in school, I figured I would fail. I didn't I scored into college level classes which took me by surprise! I signed up for my classes the same day, I start August 20th! If you cannot tell I am REALLY excited.

My brother comes home in three weeks and I cannot wait for that either! I have eight tickets to Indiana Beach, he doesn't know it ,but I am going to be taking him and a friend of his choice to Indiana Beach for two days. It's my birthday present/ basic training graduation present. I hope he likes it, I am sure he will be thankful for anything I do for him.



9 Months!

Mind blowing and bittersweet!

9 months ago today, I was in labor and gave birth to a gorgeous little girl at 5:27pm EST. Now she is all over the place, getting into everything and is HUGE.

Monday, July 1st, we went to her 9 month wellness check up. She is perfect. She weighed 24lbs and some oz's and was 31inch tall, which is above average for her age. She is off the charts and I am so happy she above the charts rather than below.The doctor said I could start adding coconut milk to her formula an oz at a time. She is lactose so she won't be getting cow milk. All her developments are on time or before.

If you asked me 2 yrs ago if I thought I was going to have a child i would have said "No, I can't have children." Two miscarriages and a total of THREE years trying we finally had our little healthy baby! It's still all new to me, kind of feels like a dream. If it is I hope I NEVER wake up from it!

She is clapping now. She stands up on her knees and is currently trying to transition to her feet from her knees. She has fell face forward about four times today. Poor kid. She got her first bruise the other day, on her leg, not sure how she got it though. None on her face yet.

I made her a fourth of July tutu that I can't wait to upload pictures of, later tonight when I publish this blog.

Rayelee Update

Rayelee can say dada, mama, dog, and kk. One top tooth broke through the other three are about to. Today she stood with her walking toy, which caught me off guard! She loves finding shoes and pulling them around. She seems to always find the trash can in her walker. She loves all the animals. When she wakes up in the morning she doesn't cry, she plays with her nigh-nigh toys. She crawls eveywhere! she knows what "no" means. She will be 9 months on 4th of July! 

Babysitting Adventures!

* There will be two post today, to make up for yesterday.

I am currently watching my SIL (sister in-law) children for the remaining of firework season. She has four children. David is 8, Jazzy is 4, Nate is 3 and Aireona is 8 months. I am also watching another little boy named Shawn who is 4, but he doesn't start until next week. I absolutly LOVE watching children.

Monday, we had lunch, story time, naptime, snack, coloring and then we decided to go to the park. The 3 girls went all in the wagon and David pushed Nate in a stroller. We get 3/4's of the way there and I discover BOTH my back tires to the wagon are pretty much flat. So, I tell them we have to turn around air up the tires, then we will come back. We get back to my house, for me to realize that Robert has the air compressor in the back of his Jeep. By this time Robert is at work. The kids were a little let down, but they understood. So we came back inside had so free time to play. Then at 8:00pm I had them lay down to calm down until their mom got here at 10:00pm.

Tuesday, was the same as Monday, except we went to the park. Which of course I snapped a few pictures for the blog. They had fun and played pirates. I am guessing pirates are a big thing now, I keep seeing kids playing and dressing up like pirates more and more every year! They were wore out when we came back. They colored while the babies slept. Free time then laid down once again.

I love ALL 14 of my nieces and nephews, yes i said 14!

Sal, Emmett, Taj, Cassie, Calvin, Lydia, Knox, Dillon, Hannah, Parker, David, Jazzy, Nate and AIreona!

I am truly blessed with such a big family :)